I’ve been a bit quiet recently. We all have. It’s hard, because social media and blogs are a distraction, but they’re also a problem when it comes to trying to avoid situations.
Coronavirus is awful and taking over our lives, so when I could, I wanted to avoid it, but that’s meant I’ve also missed out on writing and enjoying social media for what it is, so I’m going to try and get back to it.
COVID-19 has caused a lot of uncertainty. I found out yesterday that I’ve been furloughed. Although, I probably do still have a job to go back to, it’s still a worrying time. E isn’t going to nursery (her dad is a keyworker, so technically she still could) and it’s such a shame, because she was coming on so much. It makes me wonder how much this is impacting all her. I’m constantly worried about someone catching the virus and it impacting the family. Everything is very uncertain. This made me think about how motherhood is also uncertain – even if you’re not a first-time mum!
Nothing is certain in mum life – apart from that your newborn will do a poonami just as you’re about to leave the house…
You don’t know how your pregnancy will go, how the labour will pan out, whether you’ll be able to breastfeed, if your baby will take a dummy, if your baby will sleep, when your baby will sleep through, how they’ll take to food, when they will crawl/walk/talk. It’s all a mystery, no matter which number baby it is.
In fact, the only certainty (seriously) in life, is that nothing is certain.
Right now, I am very scared and anxious about how the next few months are going to pan out, but with my husband and E by my side, we’ll be ok. More than ok.